kita tak faham apa maksud ni sampaila suatu masa..
Experience do teach us sumthing to be appreciated in life..
Sebagai seorang perempuan yg masih lagi belajar di universiti memenuhi impian kedua ibu-bapa dan menjadi contoh kepada adik-adik, saya rasa belajar ini suatu misi dalam hidup untuk keluarga dan pastinya niat menuntut ilmu kerana Allah s.w.t..
Since I was a kid, my parents made the decisions for me, although they did gave me the options in deciding on something, but at last, i turn to them n let them decide for me.
I dont regret. because I know, redha Allah terletak kpd redha kedua umi dan abah.
and because I'm thinking that, I still their little princess who want her mum so badly when she has problem or whenever she feel the pain, and who is not strong enuf to stay far away from her parents becuz shez crying like a baby soon as the bus leave the hometown.
yes, I am that kind of girl. I don't wanna grow up n leave my childhood.
But, sometimes, I though I was being a selfish to my soon-to-be-the other half.. I know.
Every time, the thing mess in my head, I feel so guilty.
While I busy blaming my self, theres a voice deep in my heart whispering, why shud i feel so? well, i shudn't and dont have to. My priority as for now is my family, and my parents do not approve early marriage. He has to wait for years to get us together 'halal'.
I learn, its not easy to satisfy other people's heart; family and him. I choose my family while Im not yet urs -legally, because my duty is not finish yet. My parents wish, I have to done with it first.
Thank you, for being there, n stay with me for years. Its not that I dont remember or try not to, but I will.. for the rest of my life. I promise, Allah-willing.. it worth for.
It just that... I hope, u never lose hope on me, n leave me in the midst becus of u are tired of waiting.
Allah knows what best for us, I believe He just hold the thing becuz He has sumthing better for us that will come out latter.
p/s: my lullaby Faeiz b. Musa :)